1001 Feelings

When I woke up this morning .. I felt weird .. Many things were running through my head ..
I even realized that I still think about things even when I'm sleeping ..
1001 feelings in me .. I don't know how to describe it ..

I felt sad, happy, guilty, restless .. Like something is going to happen ..
More like sixth sense to me ..

Sometimes I don't know if the things I do were right or wrong .. I might think that I have done the best for everyone .. But .. Seems like it isn't ..

My mom was acting weird towards me yesterday .. Like she knew about something but she ain't telling me what is it .. This makes me even more uneasy ..

I just feel so restless now .. I don't know what to think anymore ..
My head can't stop thinking .. My heart can't stop feeling ..
All I wanna know is .. Am I right or wrong to decide these things??

Right now .. The sky outside is dark .. Like God understands how I feel and I'm trying my best to decide things rationally .. I might hurt the people I love and I might bring joy to the people I love .. Somehow .. I have to decide .. What is the best for everyone? All I hope for is that .. People will understand how I feel and why I'm doing it ..

Its not easy making a decision that will change the rest of your life .. For me now .. It has changed my life .. Well partially .. I have to think of so many peoples' feelings .. Seriously it ain't easy .. I just felt like my heart is crying deep down inside ..

All I hope for is that what I do are for the best for everyone ..