All Too Sudden

I was shocked and in grief when I heard that Michael Jackson passed away .. My mom told me about it after I got back from work .. At first I thought my mum was joking .. But .. My mum never know how to joke .. And she's not the type of person that is into all these superstar thingy .. She knows that I don't believe her .. She switched the channel to CNN and there I saw the headlines on the big big screen .. "Michael Jackson is dead at the age of 50" ..

That moment .. No words to describe how shocked and disbelief I was .. Then the feeling of grief came upon me .. I wanted to cry like I did when Princess Diana passed away .. But .. I thought .. I can't do that in front of my mom .. I was a 10 year old kid when Diana died .. So its ok for me to cry like a baby .. But now I'm a 23 year old ADULT .. So no no no .. No tears .. Cannot ..

Everyone on FB was like posting their condolences and saying their prayers .. Even I was doing the same thing on FB ..

He was a great musician, dancer and a philanthropist .. He is the LEGEND! He will be greatly missed by everyone ..

Rest In Peace Michael ..

Gu Gu Ga Ga Over Baby Rian

Today baby Rian turns 1 month and 8 days old .. When I first saw him, he was a very little baby weighing in only at 2.25kg .. But now .. He has grown so much .. His face, arms and thighs are all beginning to look chubby .. He now weighs in at 3.4kg ..

Actually the true sebab why I post this blog is because ramai orang sekarang gila-gilakan baby Rian .. Dah jadi macam superstar .. More famous than me .. Sigh .. Baby Rian is on high demand .. Its ok .. I don't mind losing to a baby .. Especially when it is baby Rian ..

So guys .. Nah .. Ambik la korang .. Seperti yang korang mintak .. Gambar terkini baby Rian .. Betapa susahnya untuk I dapatkan gambar baby Rian buka matanya besar-besar .. Semoga korang enjoy tengok gambar baby Rian .. Korang dah kena bayar I komisen sebab I susah payah dapat gambar yang cute cute ni ..

Another "No Production" Day

Yesterday was a BORINGGG day for me .. I was in the office from 9.30 in the morning right until 9 at night .. Almost 12 hours of no production for me ..

This company only got 4 ladies working including me .. My boss is away in Thailand for a business trip .. My other colleague has classes and she only comes in to the office on Friday .. The other is no where to be seen .. I hadn't seen her since I started working in this company .. So that leaves me here alone in the office .. I have all the apartment all to myself .. At first I thought it will be fun .. But .. It doesn't seems like it in the end .. I was slowly dying of extreme boredom ..

I was too bored .. I started playing with my camera .. Snap snap snap all the way ..

So I started snapping the whole house .. Doing some kind of interior design catalogue .. Ehehehe ..

My favorite part of the house is the dining area .. I don't know why ..But somehow I thought it looks kind of chic .. The furnitures and everything ..

My working table ..Looks kind of simple .. But I have everything to it .. Laptop, printer, stationeries .. All that I need ..

The living room .. With flat screen LCD tv .. Don't play play oh ..

Then, I go to my boss's room .. That was when I notice this cute little painting of Mona Lisa ..


My boss's room .. I love the comfy queen size bed ..


In the office, we also have hostels .. Its for when we work late and too tired to go home .. We can actually stay here ..




Then .. When there's nothing left for me to snap .. I ended up snapping myself .. Swt!




Oh gosh .. Even I'm feeling embarassed by the way I snapped myself ..

Hell of a Working Life

For the whole of last week .. I felt like I was Betty from the series Ugly Betty ..
Running here and there like a crazy person .. Doing everything for the boss ..
Well .. I am not exactly like Betty .. I don't wear hideous clothes .. I don't have a very bad sense of fashion .. Wear weird shape glasses .. And .. I don't wear BRACES !!

But our personalities does look alike .. We will do anything what the boss asked us to do .. And yet .. We don't complaint .. We are both hardworking ladies .. We will still be the happy-go-lucky person we are no matter how tired our job is ..

Seriously .. My work is no easy work .. I have to handle so many things and meet all sorts of people .. Recently, at the Honda Cub Prix in Malacca .. The client was screaming at us because of the problems with the girls .. It was my first time that I actually blew my top at one of my girls when working .. She was so f***king annoying .. She wasn't doing her job .. Client complaint about her .. When I told her off, she still dares to show me face and attitude .. That was when I lost my patience .. I told her that if she doesn't want to work she can leave!! And .. She showed me face! Argghhh ...!!

The client was so pissed at her that they wouldn't want to take her for the remaining rounds of the Honda Cub Prix .. Then she can still have the balls to go tell the client that she wants to work for him in F1!! Orang yang tak tau malu!! At that moment, I felt like slapping and kicking her ..! In events, rule number 1 .. Never talk to clients!! She who worked for so many events doesn't seems to know that!! And whats more annoying .. She name herself LOREAL!! Oh for God sake .. Pleasssseeeee ..!!

When the event was over .. Me and the other girl was supposed to send the girls back .. Unfortunately that girl didn't sit my car .. I was going back to Cheras .. Then she came knocking on my window asking me to send her back to Damansara .. In my heart was like .. "What .. Even if I know the way but I wouldn't want to be in the same car as you for the rest of the 2 hours!!"

I told her that I don't know the way .. Oh was she disappointed .. Ehehehe .. I did it on purpose .. My revenge!!

Seriously these girls do get on your nerves sometimes .. They can be demanding .. Really demanding .. They think that they are beautiful .. Very smart .. But when you have attitude problem .. Girl, you ain't that beautiful anymore .. Client will hate to choose you for jobs ..

Honestly, its no easy babysitting these girls .. I rather babysit my sister ..

A Tiring Week

It has been more than a week now since I last blog .. Was so busy the whole of last week until I have no time to online ..

Finally, I can finally blog .. I'm off for 2 days and my boss is not in KL ..

Last Monday, I started my internship at J-Link .. Its an event management company ..
First day, didn't go office .. Instead I become someone's ah mat (driver) .. Babysit 3 models .. Sat at the makeup academy for 4 hours just to wait for the models to finish their makeup and photoshoot .. Then drive them back again .. Sigh ..

Second day ..
Still didn't go office .. Went to Sepang with my boss to discuss with SIC officials about Japan Super GT .. Sat there for another 4 hours ..

Third day .. I forgot what I did .. *brain too tired to recall*

Fourth day .. I FINALLY went to the office at Hartamas .. Its a service apartment ..

It looks like an ordinary apartment ..


Taadaahhh .. Our office ..
Its not a big company in terms of the size of the office .. But .. Reputation wise .. Its a big company alright ..


I managed to catch a glimpse of the faces of the company's models ..


Night .. There was a Japan Super GT Roadshow .. Two places ..
Ming Tien at SS24 ..


And HQNine at Plaza TTDI ..

Our Super GT girls ..


Our small little booth outside the club ..
I finished work at 12am .. Sigh ..


The next day .. Woke up early .. Was at Midvalley at 8am to coordinate Mitsubishi event ..


Launching of the new Pajero Sport ..


Friday ..
Took off to Malacca ..
I didn't realize that I was driving so fast .. I reached Malacca in less than 1 1/2 hours .. Shoot!
Hope I don't get any speeding summonses ..

This is the Petronas Cub Prix at Malacca International Motor Circuit in Ayer Keroh, Malacca ..
Our client is Honda ..



It was a tiring 3 days at Malacca .. Sun was so hot .. That now I AM TANNED!!



After the event was over .. I went back home ..
When I'm home .. I get to see baby Rian .. After 3 days of not seeing him .. After 3 days of missing him like crazy .. When I see him .. The feeling of tiredness in me just disappear ..


Look at his big big eyes ..


After 2 hours of playing .. He dozed off to sleep ..

Brand New

I know I've been in an EMO mode these few days .. Can't help it .. And I'm sure you guys are getting annoyed with my EMO posts .. Chill ..

Don't worry .. Its all over .. Now I can blog about something serious and bullshit here and there .. You won't see me going crazy over my feelings anymore .. Brand new Elly ..

So be patient for my next post k ..

And lastly, I would like to sincerely thank my family and all my buddies who are always there for me and never fail to cheer me up .. Thank you guys! Love you! Muax!

Breath of a New Life

The past few weeks has been a roller coaster for me .. So many things happened at the same time .. I was lost .. Didn't know what to do ..

But thank God I am still able to stand on my two feet and I have all the support I need from all the people who really care for me dearly ..

I used to think that life is so simple .. No worries .. No nothing .. Just enjoy life .. But I was so wrong .. Life is not as simple as it is .. In life there are always ups and downs .. We must learn how to face hardships in life before we can really enjoy it ..

Everyone makes a mistake in life .. Not all are perfect .. This is what I understand after what I've been through these past few weeks .. We must learn to forgive and forget .. And move on with our lives ..

We must always cherish the people who really care for us .. Cause without them, we are nothing .. They are the ones that will always be there for you no matter what happens .. Loving you .. Guiding you .. Helping you .. Supporting you ..

Being a human is not an easy job .. Everyone of us have our responsibilities ..

I'm beginning to learn how to see life in a different perspective .. By doing this, then only can we know what life is all about ..

Torn In Between

Life is so unpredictable sometimes .. When something happened, it comes all the sudden ..
For me .. It was not easy .. I was stuck in between .. Not knowing what to do ..
At the same time, I have to think of other peoples' feelings and ignore mine ..
I never seem to think about myself as I only care about others ..

Betraying my own feeling wasn't easy .. There are people who said I was foolish enough not to think of myself ..
I had tried my best in making a decision that is the best for everyone ..
Some might hate me for it .. Some might be happy if I do that ..
It is very hard to please everyone .. Not even myself ..

Somehow, I have come to my senses that I will have to think of myself and love myself first before I can think and love someone else ..
Some people may think that I am selfish .. But .. I really hope that they will understand the reason why I am doing this ..

It saddens me when I see someone whom I really care felt hurt by my doings .. There's no words to describe how sorry and guilty I was after what I have done .. But .. Its the best way ..
Rather than they suffer for the future .. Might as well I end it once and for all .. Even though it means hurting them ..

But .. I'm sure they will understand one day ..
They can hate me or be angry at me .. But .. I did it for the sake of everyone ..
It is my responsibility and that I have to carry it for the rest of my life ..

May God bless everyone ..

EMO PERIOD!!

SAD ..!! CAN'T STOP CRYING ..!!
I'VE BEEN CRYING FOR THE PAST 3 HOURS ..!!
I'M RUNNING OUT OF TEARS & MY EYES ARE SUPER SWOLLEN ..!!
I'M TOOOOO EMO ..!!
hsjfdsjjshdjh ..!!

I Dunno What To Name This Post

How do you feel when your loved ones are taken away from you? Sad .. Devastated .. Loneliness .. Guilty .. That is exactly how I feel now .. There's no one for me to turn to when I need that someone to hear my feelings .. All I can do is cry myself to sleep ..

I have never thought that I will feel this way .. I always thought that I'm tough enough to go through all these .. Was I wrong .. I finally knew that I am just a normal human being who has feelings .. Feelings to care for that someone, to love that someone and to cherish that someone ..

I made a big decision today that will change my life forever .. A sacrifice that I made which will make everyone but me happy .. Honestly it wasn't easy on me .. Something very precious to me being taken away .. I felt like my whole world came down .. A knife pierced straight into my heart .. I know from this moment onwards, I will never sleep well or eat well .. But at least I know my precious one will have the happiness he deserved .. That is all that matters to me ..

1001 Feelings

When I woke up this morning .. I felt weird .. Many things were running through my head ..
I even realized that I still think about things even when I'm sleeping ..
1001 feelings in me .. I don't know how to describe it ..

I felt sad, happy, guilty, restless .. Like something is going to happen ..
More like sixth sense to me ..

Sometimes I don't know if the things I do were right or wrong .. I might think that I have done the best for everyone .. But .. Seems like it isn't ..

My mom was acting weird towards me yesterday .. Like she knew about something but she ain't telling me what is it .. This makes me even more uneasy ..

I just feel so restless now .. I don't know what to think anymore ..
My head can't stop thinking .. My heart can't stop feeling ..
All I wanna know is .. Am I right or wrong to decide these things??

Right now .. The sky outside is dark .. Like God understands how I feel and I'm trying my best to decide things rationally .. I might hurt the people I love and I might bring joy to the people I love .. Somehow .. I have to decide .. What is the best for everyone? All I hope for is that .. People will understand how I feel and why I'm doing it ..

Its not easy making a decision that will change the rest of your life .. For me now .. It has changed my life .. Well partially .. I have to think of so many peoples' feelings .. Seriously it ain't easy .. I just felt like my heart is crying deep down inside ..

All I hope for is that what I do are for the best for everyone ..

Trip Up North

In the wee hours of Saturday night, I was forced by my mum to drive allll theee waaayyy uppp to Alor Setar just to pay a visit to my grandma who is staying alone at the moment as my grandpa is down here in KL ..

I never like going back to mom's hometown .. Firstly, the weather is always HOT up there .. Secondly, there's nothing much in the town of Alor Setar .. But for the sake of my mum .. I finally went .. Started the journey at 2 a.m. to avoid the hot sun and the traffic ..

Finally, we reached Alor Setar at 8 a.m. and straight we went to the famous Md Ibrahim's Nasi Kandar at Kim Bee Chew Kopitiam at Jalan Tunku Ibrahim for BREAKFAST!! A heavy breakfast indeed .. I highly recommend this place .. Many people will come here to eat or tapau for breakfast ..

Old style kopitiam

People queuing up

Taadaahhh .. This is what we ordered for breakfast .. Not lunch ya .. Looks appetizing right?? Its so Yummy especially the chicken and the curry sauce .. Okay okay .. I can see slivers dripping out from your mouth .. No use drooling at all these food .. Wanna eat it?? Drive yourself all the way up to AS then .. Warning: 4 hours journey from KL without stop!

Hot milk tea Alor Setar style

After finishing our very heavy meal .. Straight we went to see my grandma ..

Then after that, went jalan-jalan .. My mum's idea .. Not mine .. Cause' I know there's nothing much to see in Alor Setar ..

The mosque that I always see every year

The Kedah tower that I always see every year

The vast evergreen paddy fields that I see every year

But .. my mum brought me to a place I have never been before in Alor Setar .. The Paddy Musuem located at Ayer Itam ..

Sorry guys .. Don't mind the rubbish bin and public toilet sign .. I was in a rush to fast fast take the welcome sign as it was so HOT under the glaring afternoon sun .. Beh tahan ..

I thought it will be something interesting .. But to my disappointment .. Nothing much to be seen inside .. There's one section that says "Puncak Gunung Keriang" .. Immediately I thought I could see the view of Gunung Keriang which is situated right opposite of the museum .. Paid a freakin' RM3 per person just to go see the view .. Reached the top .. Mana tau .. Instead of the view of the REAL Gunung Keriang .. I just saw a fake view of Gunung Keriang .. Pissed off!! But honestly .. The paintings looked real and natural .. But nothing much to offer .. Disappointed!

Still have time to pose with my brother in front of a statue of a kerbau pulling a man ..


The real Gunung Keriang ..


After the disappointing Paddy Museum visit .. Its time to eat again .. This time we went to eat the famous Char Kuey Teow .. You think only Penang is famous for Char Kuey Teow mehh .. Alor Setar also got one ahh .. But there's more to this one .. Its fried not using gas but .. with Charcoal!! Frying using charcoal will make the taste of the Char Kuey Teow .. Wahhh .. Dunno how to describe it .. Yummy!! Even the Penang Char Kuey Teow lose to this one ahh!!

Finally, we decided to leave for KL at 4 p.m. after we found out that there's nothing much for us to explore .. It was freakin' jammed all the way from Juru to Ipoh .. Heavy traffic ..

So decided to stopped by Ipoh to eat no other than the famous .. Ipoh Beans Sprout Chicken Rice .. Si beh tulan .. Got Chinese and Malay but .. NO ENGLISH!! How ang mohs going to read???? Its one of the tourist destination in Ipoh mind you .. Lucky I can read Malay if not .. Chinese I don't understand .. I'm a BANANA :D

It was only 8 p.m. but the crowd was huge and there's no place for us to sit .. Hungry and tulan .. Why? Cause' I was so hungry .. There's no place to sit .. Standing there like a fool .. Watching people sinking their teeth into those yummy delicious chicken and licking it all the way .. How not to tulan??

But in the end .. I myself finally get to sink my teeth into those yummy delicious chicken and happily licking it all the way .. Laugh out loud ..

For a meal of 1 whole chicken, a plate of big fat crispy beans sprout, 8 bowls of rice and drinks .. We only paid RM 55.90 .. Freakin' cheap!! And I still feel full up until now ..

Baby Rian turned 20 days

On Saturday, Baby Rian turned 20 days old ..!!
I went to see Baby Rian .. So excited to see Baby Rian ..
As usual .. When I reached, Baby Rian is happily in his oi oi land ..

For a 20 days old baby, Baby Rian is still very small .. in size .. But still .. He's very cute ..
He loves to sleep to much .. Duhhhh .. He's a baby!! What was I thinking??!

I carried Baby Rian in my arms .. Hoping that he will wake up .. Mana tau .. He just opened his eyes a bit .. Then .. Close back! Argghh !!

But still .. HE'S VERYYYY CUTE!!

Happy 20 days old Baby Rian!! Love u much!! Muaxxx!!